Masochism : pleasure in pain

I have turned masochistic..

Now i find pleasure in gulping tears,

Its habit that has grown over years,

I find the salty tears, too sweet,

Even in the chilly weather, your thoughts served as heat!!

I am haapy that i stay way from you,

As being near, I couldn't hide my pain from you!

I dont want to display myself feeble and week,

I lost intrest in all that i liked, Am i now a mere geek!!

All that i could express is through words,

Have got lot to say, thoughts swirling as wind whirls!!

I dunno what to do? I dunno!! I forgot wat was my chore!!

Hey, lastly wanna ask you..

Who taught you to make me love you more and more..