Let's Talk

Don't tell me something that I don't wish to hear,

Instead fabricate it to make soothing to ear.

Tell me a truth that's too good to be true,

It better be something involving me and you.

I see the sun setting, waiting for it to rise,

Here I sit, rolling my dice.

Look in my eyes to say something,

Something that makes sweet bells ring.

Look in deeper in my eye as it were an art,

That's the route you should take to my heart

And when you reach there, I'll shut them at spree

Keeping you there not letting you flee.

Just So You Know

I loved, and love you,
Unknown, If loved by you.
If you knew, I did cry each day,
Wonder, what would you say!

Never, could look into your eyes,

Unaware, if indeed, they do care.

Never, could look into your heart,

I just wish, I was somewhere there.

Urge, Urge to ask you,
If you would be mine, forever.
Urge, Urge to ask you,
Do you even dream, of us being together!!

Wish, Wish I could tell you,

How deeply & madly, I yearn for you!

Wish, Wish I could tell you,

How my heart melts, when I think of me & you.

Amidst the prolonged silence,
I feared, If I would lose you.
Nothing heard. Nothing said,
Would imply, feelings dead!

But, Just so you know, I am still into you.

Just so you know, I still love you.

Urge, Urge to decipher the future of me and you.
Urge, Urge to see, If we can ever make it through!!

Beauty with which everything blends

The cool breeze
The soundless drizzle
The gloomy sky
And, The idle me.

The shut book
The soulful music
The ginger tea
And, The silent me.

The intense sehnsucht
The profound thinking
The heart's plea
And, The lonely me.

Just wishing, the evening never ends.
Wish i could preserve the beauty,
The beauty with which everything blends.

The Other Side.. (arbit imagery)

As far as I know you,

Or, I must say,

As far as, You wanted me to know you;

I could make out something,

Something which I would pen down replacing myself as you,

Which would mean, A dare to pen down a dedication to me by you.

(following lines are to be read as if they are from her....... )

I very well know your feelings for me,

And I really cherish them.

I would love to preserve them.

I wish I could express myself, the way you do,

All I can say for now, is

I do care for you,

I do have immense respect for you.

I do read, all your compositions you silently dedicate,

But to respond, you very well know, I hesitate.

I have read them all,

And somehow, they seem to persuade me to fall.

But, Its not about what I feel, how I feel , for you

Its the life we live,

Its the expectations from us,

that though bitter, but are the only ones , true.

Its not that in anyway I dislike you,

Its not from you, that I have some pain,

But the moments we share, right now,

we very well know, will not forever remain.

And when it would be time to part,

We would be left with a bleeding heart!!

Let not that moment arrive,

Let's not be questionable,

Let's bear the pain of the present,

Why compound it to the extent, unbearable!!

You do make me feel very special,

I wish, I could make you feel the same.

But, you know, why I can't

The circumstances amongst us are to blame!!

But yeah, from you I have a genuine complaint,

Its about the pain, the pain you carry,

Its something, that to me is sometimes scary!!

If in fate, in future, we may meet across some lane..

Let's just fulfill our duties,

Let's just meet answerable expectations,

Leave the rest as it is,

Why pave the way to undestined destinations!!

One for me, One for her

As I close my eyes,

I see a face.

A face smiling,

A face radiating a glow, never found elsewhere.

And I just feel like to embrace that smile,

I just feel like to dissolve myself  into that glow.

It’s like living a life of my dreams,

If it was the only means to have the awesome pleasure

I dare not open my eyes ever.

But then…

Apart from this illusion,

There awaits a life..

A life that’s real,

A life that’s bitter.

A life that calls for duty,

A life that deprives me of that illusionary opportunity..

If I could by anymeans, just blend the two,

And could meet the both,

Live the both,

One for me,

Other for her

Such an Irony..

The one for me , deprives me of the pleasure of future.

The one for her, demands sacrifice of the present.

A Poem for a friend on his B'day..

In one of the turns of my life, I met a boy,

who silently enetered and did spread joy..

In my life, various vital roles, have been played by him,

I dunno, what would I do, had I not met him..!!

He is loving and caring by nature, friendly to all,

And yes, whenever in need of finance he is "RBI" to all!!

As for me, he almost adopted me once & provided required financial aid,

Such friends are rare, and seldom are they now made!

Though I find him friendly, but he is ever silent about his crush,

God knows, after reading whose SMSes, he can't resist to blush!!

I remember the hungry evenings at Guddi bakers,

How can we forget the irritation caused by 2-2 min. orkut users :)

Whenever reminded of 'deal' near hira, it would leave us in pain,

Which neither I, nor he, would like to explain..

I can't forget his instant help (pizza...) on a single call,

To help him, no matter what happens, I won't hesitate at all..

His characterstics are a li'l weird, a li'l horrible :P

Still will try to pen down as far as possible!

Most of the times, he is found sleeping,

Or would be found, room to room, uselessly wandering!!

He can't sit patiently at one single definite place,

He would keep rotating, in an unconscious phase!

Dunno, What or whom he misses, as wats d reason behind bunking law classes,

Because when it comes to classes of other subjects, he is just flawless!!

Dunno, what pleasure he finds in biting/scratching finger,

Howsoever important the errand be, he would definitely linger.. (:P)

He says, walk from ghalib to ITO is not tiresome, its a pleasure walk,

But when asked to walk till V3S, he finds it a non-sense talk..

it is he, who led me to 'Mobile Office' addiction,

It is fun to watch him, when he is undergoing irritation!!

Before speaking, he would construct various expressions,

Most of his jokes are PJs, and still expects funny reactions..

He often smugs, to belong to the 'Agrawal' cult,

Would often compare CA to other institutes' product..

With Anky & Sanky, each morning before class, he use to compete,

As if all three, were in hurry, and sum1 were waiting to meet!! (:P)

Most of the times her acts, (rather pretends) to be smart and is driven by over-confidence,

As is evident from the case told by Prazhy, about 'ka- kha - ga' incidence.. (lol)

Prazhy says, his attitude is just confined here in hostel,

Rest infront of 'JUNTA', he forgets attitude, and is as dumb as turtle in shell..

Howsoever he is, he is unique & special in his own way..

Though couldn't celebrate well, still wishing him a very happy birthday!!

I am sorry, this message would reach him a li'l late,

He is a friend, who promised a treat, for which I did wait!!

But, I was later reminded, he did treat none,

So, how could I expect one!!

Rest Jo bhi ho, Bande me hai itna dum, itna dum,

Ab iske baare me jitna bolo, utna hai kam.. {;)}

Last night..

Let there be pain,

Let there be rain,

Let the ashes remain,

Let the time fly in vain..

Let there be everything, that reminds me of you,

Let me think of you, no matter what I do!!

As while writing this tonight,

I find you seated beside!

Let me pen down something lively tonight,

As I see you sitting beside.. { :) }

You are smiling with a slight tilt of your head,

Oh! hold it well, don't spill that tea on my bed..

Is it, Have i forgotten ur voice??

You appear dumb, I appear deaf..

Oh! there you speak, there I hear

So, neither you dumb, nor I deaf,

Its just that we aren't too near!!

So, I just stare you, and you are babbling,

And its something, I am enjoying!!

You just licked that last tea drop with your tongue rolling, below your lips..

As you see writing all of it, you stare with your hands on your hips!!

And I still continue to pen down,

Hey, you scared me with that frown..

Now you are peeping in my notebook,

And I am just preserving all your looks!

Its for future, i am penning this text,

As I dunno when, we would meet next!!

Though I meet you each night frequently,

Sometimes in day, very silently!!

But each time I can't just write it all,

So, I don't wan't to miss this opportunity at all!!

Oh! you are fading away,

I expected you to stay

I didn't hear , the "goodbye" you said,

With two cups of tea, I am still sitting on my bed!!!

Debut in hindi poetry..

Yaadon me beete ye din ye raina,
bheegi palke, par ek jhalak kahatir pyaase ye naina..
Is baawre dil pe chalta nahi zor,
Wo hi wo dikhe chanhun or, chanhun or...

Uski har baat, uske har lafza, rooh me simat jaate hain,
Inhe hum chah kar bi nahi mita paate hain,
Ye dil to bas ek zidd kar baitha hai,
Us sangdil ke pyar ki aas lagaye baitha hai..

Ab wo door, aur ab, aur bhi door ho chala hai,
Par achanak, ye dil na jaane kyun, beete lamho ka saaz chhedh chala hai..
Gustakh dil, uske khatir, Usi ke khatir dhadke jaa raha hai..
Sab baaton se mukhatib hai, fir bi ek hi fariyaad kiye ja raha hai!!

Kyun pyaar me dard ka saath jarur milta hai..
aankhen band hone par zannat, khulne par khaak hi milta hai..
kyun tanhayiyan is mod pe raas nahi aati,
sab kuch benoor sa hai, bas uski ehsaas hai lubhati..

Is dil ki dastak ansunu reh gayi,
main yahi khada reh gaya, wo in bheegi ankhon ke samne se hi chali gayi..
Mulakat ab bhi hoti hai, par ab jariya khwaab hai..
fark iotna hai ; Ab dil me dartd aur ankhon me sailaab hai...

POEM DEDICATED TO A FRND CUM SIS...

In this short journey of life, travelled yet,

There were a variety of people, I met..

But then, sometimes someone's simplicity leaves a deep impact,

and such someone becomes special, and we forever want to stay in contact..

Here, I describe one among such someone,

She can be compared to none,

Too simple, too nice,

with a sharp twinkle in eyes..

She is undoubtedly loquacious,

when it comes to studies, she is extremely laborious.

At times, she is too caring , as a sis!

Having a friend like her is real bliss!!

She is very friendly and creates friends very soon,

Having her as friend and sis for me is a true boon..

She is too sweet, too innocent,

about jokes and pranks she is total ignorant

She speaks at a lightining fast speed, which how cud I forget to mention!!

To interpret her speeches, you ought to pay full attention..

Oh! I described her, but introduction without name is incomplete,

Yup, she is Mani, and will gift her this message when we meet..

Her birthdate is february twenty-eight,

its painful to admit, yes this message is late..

Hope you enjoyed that day,

Mannku wishes you belated happy birthday..

Masochism : pleasure in pain

I have turned masochistic..

Now i find pleasure in gulping tears,

Its habit that has grown over years,

I find the salty tears, too sweet,

Even in the chilly weather, your thoughts served as heat!!

I am haapy that i stay way from you,

As being near, I couldn't hide my pain from you!

I dont want to display myself feeble and week,

I lost intrest in all that i liked, Am i now a mere geek!!

All that i could express is through words,

Have got lot to say, thoughts swirling as wind whirls!!

I dunno what to do? I dunno!! I forgot wat was my chore!!

Hey, lastly wanna ask you..

Who taught you to make me love you more and more..

Pained but unexplained..

I am not that weak or feeble,

that any can inflict pain,

even best of best friend's rudeness is like a nibble,

But when it comes to you, i go insane!!

Your words are healing one as therauptical treatment,

At times they make me feel high, high and high,

Your silence so adverse, as if i wer undergoin punishment,

But all i can do is lay in bed and sigh..

I do hide and weep,

It seldom lets me sleep,

My face has now turned a map of you,

you happy, iot glows, you sad it turns morose..

Its mystery, since when i love you,

is it since ages!!

without your thought, life is just a mock,

as a book without pages.

People say, time changes and everything changes with time,

Is it true??

So, if it is, why can't it change my love for you!!

Undefined definition.. ( a poem for friend..)

Was pondering on the relation we share,
Its strange! and finding identical is seldom and rare,
You are a girl, you are a friend, & tho not a girlfriend
Still we chat 4 hours, and share each petty event..

Its gr8 to have you, you as you are
your simplicity makes it easier to share thoughts, howsoever weird there are
I get fascinated by clouds in the sky
Though the weather is gloomy, but its u who make me feel high high n high..

I find pleasure and tempted to chat with you
I hunt for excuses(i must be sorry) silly excuses, just to hear from you,
Its not that I try to impress or try to Ogle,
But its for sure whenever in doubt you are my “GOOGLE”

I am scared if this relation ends near or soon,
I am thankful to God, having you as a friend is a true boon,
Will you ever be the same, share joys, share pains..
As the weather is cloudy, will u be around, even if it rains!!

But truth is you will disappear, as i was getting insane..
For you, my feelings, the respect .. I truly can’t explain,
Pouring my thoughts through words is a herculean task..
I assure you I am ever there for you.. never do hesitate to ask.

LubDub

You are my dream, you are my desire,
loving you & hearing from you makes me feel higher & higher..

Wen your mood is low, you do cry,
eventually, i lose my glow, making u laugh is just wat i try!

For some reason,u did forgo all ur smiles,
cant u smile 4 d one who just 2 speak 2 u once ran miles..

At tyms, I try PJs 2 make u laugh aloud,
at tyms, u cry & sob when none is around,
my heart does beat faster n leaps out,
bt at other, it just misses its lubdub sound..

One f d univrsal facts is, d grass is green, d sky is blue,
n othr bein , my heart beats just 4 u..

Tho d former has certain exceptions,
bt d othr is beyond ny limitations

falling in love with u was not by chance, nt by choice,
it was frm my heart, frm my inner voice..

Again i ponder, wer was i at fault,
and still, thinking f u is my charactr by default..

Poem for my sis..

A variety of relations surround me…

Some are gifted by birth,
Some constructed here on earth,
some are blood relations,
Some thicker than one’s imagination..

Here i proceed introducing,
Speaking, to one among my surrounding,
I dunno which category above, suits her!
As she is special & different than any other..!!


In my life, words are scarce to express your deserving place
Hm.. You have a twinkle in eye and smile on your face!

I’ll always be there for you, with no if & but,
We share a bond, that just can’t be cut!

Though we sometimes have trifling fights with each other,
I’ll stick up and stand for you, and be your cover!

It doesn’t take you long to get senti & fight,
I guess, our strange bond, rewards you this right!

I am aware of your teenage crush,
Someone afar! Whose name would make you blush! (;))

You did find a guy of your dreams,
But couldn’t collect the courage to reveal it seems!

I know you did sacrifice your dream and your heart did bleed,
But i assure you that i am there to support whenever you need..

You say at present your life is not perfect, hard time you have known,
Your strength and my advices(:P) carried you as the time has shown..

Sometimes you, and many a times I (:P) did guide each other along the right way,
I cant forget, how you did support me and provide resting shoulder that day..

I am a closed book and dislike to boast,
But truly speaking, manku shares with you the most..

In our childhood we spent together, moments both good & bad,
I still cherish memories of the fun we had..

By the way, for you i don’t know why i am presenting this composition,
Oh! Leave.. As everything in life is not tagged with a reason..

Oh! I still remember your granny style lengthy lectures on call !!
Hm, you are a emotion bag, which burst even on matters, too small..

And how can i forget to mention your full on emotional melodrama,
And yup, at times, you being as dumb as llama(:P)..

You are my sister, so obviously, you have to be the best(:P)
Our bond makes you different from the rest..

If people want to go after you, they have to go through me,
So make sure, you tell that to everyone you see..

You are my sister and i’ll be there for you, till the end,
For you are not just my sis, you are my best friend!

I wish everything in your life moves on and goes right..
And your future may be glittery, shiny & bright..

Hope, you all the readers got an idea, who is she?
Yup, she is my sister, “Himanshi”..

Attitude matters!!

I m lost in my new attitude
its 2 stop thinkin bout u in solitude..

Revealing my feelings,i ws early 2 say
bt still i say i wasnt wrong nd 4 dis silly crap,i m not gonna cry or ever pay..

If u feel without u, i m in pain,
oh! I m sorry u r misleaded in wrong lane..

2 d world u r just a sumbdy, but 2 sumbdy u r d world
somewer sumbdy is happy, just 2 learn dat u r happy

wat a pity on me! Till yesterday i was d somebody,
waited desperately 4 u 2 b such sumbody

maybe someday u may regret 2 let me go
ha! Who d hell cares, its my turn 2 present ego

i know u did nt betray me
i knw it wasn’t u d reason, i was killed
but my dis new attitude
makes in me a new life instilled!!

I could not be the person

The more i think of her,
the more i love her,
the more i try to hate her,
wat to do, she tends to be nearer….

There is no possibility of her liking me,
I feel without her , there is no possibility of me being me,
what a curse! I love her for she being she,
and she dislikes me for me being me…

If love could be bought and sold,
I would have pledged my life for her,
Now I am spending my life rather,
to discover how to forget her……

I feel, if i am the reason she may cry,
I would have prefered to die,
If she is content to find my sadness,
I would rather discard all my happiness….

Its not at all hyperbole to say,
that for her , i can even pluck the star,
even though i am aware, for me,
She wouldn’t even pluck a flower….

Now I am learning, how to
live without her,
Its just me who knows, how am I
struggling without her….

I wan’t to forget her,
but this insane heart still hopes to get her,
She says “you can’t be the person”
I donno wer was i at fault to be the one…

They say that true love is ever amusing one,
Can i meet the fate even more cursing one!!

each day of my life reminds of her…
each thought of my life ends with her….

where was I at fault ,
Now thinking of her is my character by default…