Just So You Know

I loved, and love you,
Unknown, If loved by you.
If you knew, I did cry each day,
Wonder, what would you say!

Never, could look into your eyes,

Unaware, if indeed, they do care.

Never, could look into your heart,

I just wish, I was somewhere there.

Urge, Urge to ask you,
If you would be mine, forever.
Urge, Urge to ask you,
Do you even dream, of us being together!!

Wish, Wish I could tell you,

How deeply & madly, I yearn for you!

Wish, Wish I could tell you,

How my heart melts, when I think of me & you.

Amidst the prolonged silence,
I feared, If I would lose you.
Nothing heard. Nothing said,
Would imply, feelings dead!

But, Just so you know, I am still into you.

Just so you know, I still love you.

Urge, Urge to decipher the future of me and you.
Urge, Urge to see, If we can ever make it through!!

Beauty with which everything blends

The cool breeze
The soundless drizzle
The gloomy sky
And, The idle me.

The shut book
The soulful music
The ginger tea
And, The silent me.

The intense sehnsucht
The profound thinking
The heart's plea
And, The lonely me.

Just wishing, the evening never ends.
Wish i could preserve the beauty,
The beauty with which everything blends.

Unfriended

Never will she know,
The fear with which that friend request was sent.
Never will I, be able to show,
The extent, to which , for her, I was bent!!

Was it her smile, or grace?
The grace that made me fall,
Was I on earth, or in space?
The space that made me feel above all!!

The day my request did get confirm,
I was on the seventh cloud,
To describe, I can't find an apt word, or exact term!
But, yeah, I felt like screaming, screaming aloud!!

Now, I did read her full profile,
I did read her each post
Did analyse each letter on her profile,
Did decode each of her weird post!!

There I made a vicious discovery,
Boom!!! She already belonged to somebody,
I was perplexed, of what was I supposed to worry!!
The event that followed, or of my vicious discovery!!

We became virtual friends and, not a day was passed,
And hark! She was mysteriously lost, absent on my friend list!!
It was a feeling of being raped, I felt brutally harassed,
Being UNFRIENDED, was my tale's quick end, my tale's only twist!!

The Other Side.. (arbit imagery)

As far as I know you,

Or, I must say,

As far as, You wanted me to know you;

I could make out something,

Something which I would pen down replacing myself as you,

Which would mean, A dare to pen down a dedication to me by you.

(following lines are to be read as if they are from her....... )

I very well know your feelings for me,

And I really cherish them.

I would love to preserve them.

I wish I could express myself, the way you do,

All I can say for now, is

I do care for you,

I do have immense respect for you.

I do read, all your compositions you silently dedicate,

But to respond, you very well know, I hesitate.

I have read them all,

And somehow, they seem to persuade me to fall.

But, Its not about what I feel, how I feel , for you

Its the life we live,

Its the expectations from us,

that though bitter, but are the only ones , true.

Its not that in anyway I dislike you,

Its not from you, that I have some pain,

But the moments we share, right now,

we very well know, will not forever remain.

And when it would be time to part,

We would be left with a bleeding heart!!

Let not that moment arrive,

Let's not be questionable,

Let's bear the pain of the present,

Why compound it to the extent, unbearable!!

You do make me feel very special,

I wish, I could make you feel the same.

But, you know, why I can't

The circumstances amongst us are to blame!!

But yeah, from you I have a genuine complaint,

Its about the pain, the pain you carry,

Its something, that to me is sometimes scary!!

If in fate, in future, we may meet across some lane..

Let's just fulfill our duties,

Let's just meet answerable expectations,

Leave the rest as it is,

Why pave the way to undestined destinations!!

One for me, One for her

As I close my eyes,

I see a face.

A face smiling,

A face radiating a glow, never found elsewhere.

And I just feel like to embrace that smile,

I just feel like to dissolve myself  into that glow.

It’s like living a life of my dreams,

If it was the only means to have the awesome pleasure

I dare not open my eyes ever.

But then…

Apart from this illusion,

There awaits a life..

A life that’s real,

A life that’s bitter.

A life that calls for duty,

A life that deprives me of that illusionary opportunity..

If I could by anymeans, just blend the two,

And could meet the both,

Live the both,

One for me,

Other for her

Such an Irony..

The one for me , deprives me of the pleasure of future.

The one for her, demands sacrifice of the present.